Sunday, March 9, 2014
The New Baseline
There is something about weekends... Like clockwork, it's Sunday again and we're finding that you are further behind than when you started a week ago. Way further. If your oxygen needs climb any higher, we'll be in dangerous territory. We're at 55 percent oxygen now, 20 points higher than last week. I can't express how painful it is to repeatedly watch in guarded anticipation, all week long, as you slowly improve... and then witness it all evaporate in a 5 minute episode of hypoxia. What happens if you are at 70 percent oxygen and have another episode like you did yesterday?
You've been swaddled in a little baby sized straight jacked so you don't tire yourself out. I'm revisiting the literature on steroids. If we run out of ways to get your lungs oxygen, a brain toasted by a few steroids is going to be the least of your neurological problems.
I keep looking back at yesterday and asking myself, fists clenched, "What the hell happened?"
I'm glad that I do. I'd rather feel angry than depressed.