Wednesday, April 2, 2014
When Letters Become Conversations
I'm happy to report that you are still steadily improving. Your mandatory breathes came down in the night and for the first time since you came off of the ET tube, some of the pressure added to your lungs has come down as well. Your red blood cell count is low and as a consequence your heart rate is fast but the doctors are giving you a chance to make them yourself rather than give you a blood transfusion. You are gaining weight quite nicely.
I think the past few days have been the longest period of time that I have ever gone these past few months without a lot of worry. You are still stuck in the NICU 3 (which is considered the highest level intensive care unit) but I don't think you will be here for very much longer. With my mind at relative ease, I've had a chance to sit back a bit and reflect. This morning, I noticed that I've written you about 160 letters. It's hard to believe. When you finally go home with us I suspect we'll be too busy with you to keep up THAT kind of momentum, but I intend to keep writing to you in your earlier years. That thought got me thinking though: at what point will I stop writing you letters and instead simply start having conversations?